Saturday, January 26, 2008
 "Long shots do come in and hard work, dedication and perseverance will overcome almost any prejudice and open almost any door." I believe I can make it to university and have a good propect in my carrer. I am willing to work hard and not be afraid to go into IT related field. Although many of my friends intend to go into other fields. E.g. Business related, etc. +Brave gal+ Haha.. Although I don't have anyone by my side to support me, and IT are meant for guys because most of my lecturers are man even technician. I have learn a lot of through out the 3 years. Now I have to learn to let go. It is hard to let go almost 3years of relationship. *Phew* That's my longest relationship. Once he is my everything. He ask me to study hard in polytechnic so that we can be in the same university and study together. I may have a chance to go into second year and study the same course with him. He always ask me to study and will scold me when I go out with my friends. I know he has my interest and I don't blame him as I didn't study in secondary school and didn't make it to JC. Most of them went to JC and now they are in university. Last time my results was rock bottom of the class and nobody notice about me. I was a Maths rep in class too. Haha. Later I know him and he changed my life completely. I start to study for tests and exams. I study very hard, I still remember I study SSD (server side development) MST until 4am in the morning, I study everything from practical codings till textbooks till powerpoints. I scored 80 plus. I know everyone envy those who are top scorer in class but do they know it came with a price? My eczema got worsen. This sickness of mine don't allow me to be stressful. Haha. Of course there are other factors that triger my sickness. I have tried many medicine from chinese to western. I can't stay overnight to do FYP at people's house. Sorrry guys!! I have to go home to eat medicine at night and sleep. Hua was my best friend who accompany me in school and knew I have this sickness. He supported me and bring me to National Skin Center. After we break up, I never go to National Skin Center anymore. I went to another skin center specialist at orchard. It was expensive and I feel that I am a burden to my family so I am very negative in life. Later, his classmate appear and like him. He told me about her and I knew they are always together studying in school. That girl even has a army bf that time. They are an item in class. I went to his lectures and help him copy notes while he is tired and sleeping besides me. I went to his econ lectures in the big Hall. I didn't really see that girl face but know she is shorter than me? "What can I do now"- quote by eug. I can do is to write out my feelings instead of keeping them in my heart. One day, I knew that he has something he wanted to say to me. I am a smart girl, of course I knew it will come one day. I ask him to say to me because we promise each other not to keep secret between each other. He told me he like that girl. After that, I did not sound angry or sad in the telephone conversion. I sounded happy? I didn't want him to feel bad then we chat like normal. I am a weird girl izzit it? Normal girl will be angry at least scold or sad cry or ask him to stay so that he will not leave me. But I didn't do that as I respect his decision and I am sort of sick gal. If I persist, 3 of us will be sad. Why not let them together and they are happy. Only one person be sad. I am very considerate gal. Nobody knows how I feel. Hua feel that he is not a good guy. Anyway, I wish them xin fu. I am not a selfish girl. I try to help everyone even though I don't have magic. I believe my little help will make a difference in others life. I know I am naive, some people will think that I pity them or they have pride and don't want others to help them. I always offer helps to my friends. About my studies, I am very happy that my hard work paid off. I got into director honour list for a year 2006/2007. Haha! God send kang and eug to play with me and keep me accompany for the last sem in school. At least my life is not so dull after letting go someone that always accompany me de. During those days, we went to movies, arcade, bball court, parks, shopping centres, east coast to cycle, pool, bowling, hospital, piggyback etc. We even met in KL, is that fate? We have gone through so much difficulty. Ups and downs. I can say I am very xin fu to meet him. Although in the end we are not together. At least, in my life, I tasted what is real love. It is very hard to forget those touching, sad, heart-beating moments. Sorry Eug, I have so big reaction and even conderm. You are really a nice person to me. I acknowledge that I have feelings for you. Because I don't want to have any regrets in my life. Who knows what will happen in my life? Maybe I don't have any chance to say out my feelings anymore. You are right, there will be better man out there for me. Hee!! You also teach me to be happy now. I will stay away from those sadness. I am going to be 20 soon. Hmm..a +BIG+ girl le. I make my life better and will be a pretty girl when I enter university. Haha..If I manage to squeeze in. :D |
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